Boys are dumb cuz they make you cry.
Haha, what a misleading title.
I feel so ... useless. Phill needs my support now more than ever. He just sent me a long winded e-mail explaining all the crap that's been dumped on him in about the past week, in addition to all the usual crap he's been putting up with for the past six months. And I got upset with him this morning because of a choice of words. Stupid words. Only after he sent me the e-mail and spelt out every. last. thing that he has to do, did I understand. I knew it was a lot, and he's even told me (repeatedly), but now that it's something I can see, that it's listed like that, I understand. And it made me cry because I can't help him with it. I'm supposed to be the one person he can turn to when he needs help and I can't do that. That tears me up, and it made me cry. Hell, I'm crying right now.
I said this a lot better in my e-mail back. :/
I'm kicking myself for being selfish and petty and I'm kicking myself for not understanding. But I'll continue to support him. He's my best friend in the world; he knows more about me than even I do, I think, so I automatically owe him that. In the future, I need to remind myself that what my friends (especially my closest ones) want and what they need is more important than what I want or need. I live for my friends, and I'd die without them. If they're happy, then I'm happy. If they're upset, then it's my job to make it better, even if only a little bit. And I need to stop making friends with boys because they make you cry. >_< (LOL just kidding... had to cheer myself up.)
I feel so ... useless. Phill needs my support now more than ever. He just sent me a long winded e-mail explaining all the crap that's been dumped on him in about the past week, in addition to all the usual crap he's been putting up with for the past six months. And I got upset with him this morning because of a choice of words. Stupid words. Only after he sent me the e-mail and spelt out every. last. thing that he has to do, did I understand. I knew it was a lot, and he's even told me (repeatedly), but now that it's something I can see, that it's listed like that, I understand. And it made me cry because I can't help him with it. I'm supposed to be the one person he can turn to when he needs help and I can't do that. That tears me up, and it made me cry. Hell, I'm crying right now.
I said this a lot better in my e-mail back. :/
I'm kicking myself for being selfish and petty and I'm kicking myself for not understanding. But I'll continue to support him. He's my best friend in the world; he knows more about me than even I do, I think, so I automatically owe him that. In the future, I need to remind myself that what my friends (especially my closest ones) want and what they need is more important than what I want or need. I live for my friends, and I'd die without them. If they're happy, then I'm happy. If they're upset, then it's my job to make it better, even if only a little bit. And I need to stop making friends with boys because they make you cry. >_< (LOL just kidding... had to cheer myself up.)