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I usually use this icon for "possibility."
I used to think of it this way: a whole world spread out before me, there for the taking, with a thousand choices and roads to take.
I started out a hopeless post in February the same way. February marked a low for me this year, as did May, and I started seeing that icon as representative of everything I couldn't handle because it was all big and out there, and I'm in the corner, small, meek, barely noticeable, helpless, with little to aid me. I'm glad that I've, at least somewhat, come back to the original sentiment, the original reason I started using that icon. I'm glad that I'm opening back up to the world, and I'm starting to see all those choices and roads once again. I'm glad I have hope. Really, that was the best thing I could have asked for this year. It's been a fight, but I like to think myself scrappy.
I didn't quite fulfill all my New Year's resolutions as I had hoped, but the very first one I made -- admittedly, I was just talking, I didn't think I'd actually come through on it -- the one "to be happier this time next year," came about. Given that it'd be pretty damned difficult to be worse off than I was this time last year, but I didn't expect to come as far as I have. And that said, it seems I'm still a little bit of a pessimist: I didn't expect to do well, so when I did extremely well, I was completely floored and proud of myself. Some things never change, I suppose. XD
There's a new year coming tonight, a time to start over. There's a full moon tonight, a time to banish bad things with the waning moon. It's all set up perfectly. 2009, as I correctly predicted, was a year of change. Everything was turned on its head this year, and, though I'd usually cringe at the mere thought of change, a lot of it turned out to be for the best! I'm going try to stop resisting change so much. I want 2010 to be a year of progress. I'm going to make it so. See you all then. And thank you, all of you, for the lovely ride the past three hundred sixty-five days.
Happy new year! :D
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I started out a hopeless post in February the same way. February marked a low for me this year, as did May, and I started seeing that icon as representative of everything I couldn't handle because it was all big and out there, and I'm in the corner, small, meek, barely noticeable, helpless, with little to aid me. I'm glad that I've, at least somewhat, come back to the original sentiment, the original reason I started using that icon. I'm glad that I'm opening back up to the world, and I'm starting to see all those choices and roads once again. I'm glad I have hope. Really, that was the best thing I could have asked for this year. It's been a fight, but I like to think myself scrappy.
I didn't quite fulfill all my New Year's resolutions as I had hoped, but the very first one I made -- admittedly, I was just talking, I didn't think I'd actually come through on it -- the one "to be happier this time next year," came about. Given that it'd be pretty damned difficult to be worse off than I was this time last year, but I didn't expect to come as far as I have. And that said, it seems I'm still a little bit of a pessimist: I didn't expect to do well, so when I did extremely well, I was completely floored and proud of myself. Some things never change, I suppose. XD
There's a new year coming tonight, a time to start over. There's a full moon tonight, a time to banish bad things with the waning moon. It's all set up perfectly. 2009, as I correctly predicted, was a year of change. Everything was turned on its head this year, and, though I'd usually cringe at the mere thought of change, a lot of it turned out to be for the best! I'm going try to stop resisting change so much. I want 2010 to be a year of progress. I'm going to make it so. See you all then. And thank you, all of you, for the lovely ride the past three hundred sixty-five days.
Happy new year! :D
( Back to your regularly scheduled LJ. )