I'm a terrible person.

So, I fare slightly worse playing a red deck than green or green/white, and worse still with blue. Have yet to work with white alone, or black alone. Phill and I played red and blue only tonight, and the games were not only closer, but they seemed to last longer, and I enjoyed them much more, too. Losing every now and again (when it's not for a stupid reason like forgetting to untap) is a good thing! AND I'm finally understanding how battles work instead of just beefing up my creatures and letting them stomp around all over the place.

Then the geekery and happy times ended because I admitted that I'm slowly losing physical attraction because he's gained so much weight. D: And I shouldn't. I love him, and that's the only thing that should matter, so why do I feel this way? I thought I was past my vanity, and I certainly never imagined myself to be this freakin' shallow. What's WRONG with me? D: And that was a lovely... coming up on two and a half hours spent crying.

I'm so exhausted, and I've probably got a headache. I'm gonna get to bed; I've got work in the morning.

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