FF4

I started over. It's _aiji_'s fault for posting that video in my comments on Monday (and the rest of you, too, for your subliminal messages). Not that, y'know, I want to leave the game unfinished. I forgot, though, that I don't... particularly... like this game. XD I think I'll keep playing: to finish it, for one, but likely it's more for the song, now.

(If Zelda II had a kick ass tune like that, I might wanna finish THAT as well. Fucking hard ass game, can't find the second palace, grumble grumble.... :/)

The first step.

I kinda like this extended and unexpected vacation of mine. Sure, I've been depressed the entire time, but that's only because nothing's been distracting me from my depression (that's all anything I do is, y'know: a distraction). And while I kind of don't want it to end, people are starting to bug me about it now, so it's time I stopped being a lump.

But the thing is, I hate making phone calls. I can answer a phone, and subsequently pass the thing off to whomever is being sought, but I hate holding a phone for more than twenty seconds. I feel awkward, especially if I'm asking a favor. Those silences get bad enough when I'm talking to my friends -- I feel bad we've run out of BS to gab about -- but it's worse when I'm waiting for something. I've always hated asking for help, and I've always hated phone calls, and so calling for help is a nightmare. That said, I still did it.

My heart was racing the entire time, and I'm kind of glad the person I was looking for wasn't there. Unfortunately, that only means that this isn't over, and I'll have to endure another phone call AT ANY TIME. Surprise! ... I hate surprises, too. But I did it, Lynda; I took the first step. You happy now? XD;;

I should probably update (and consolidate!) my résumé.

Edit, 12:08 - WELL I DO BELIEVE that that was the fastest I've ever fucked up a job opportunity. I just got my call back and when asked to TALK ABOUT MYSELF, I hesitated. "Um, oh, I wasn't really expecting that. Well, uh, hm. I don't know what you want to know." YES I ACTUALLY SAID THAT. I hate phone calls, augh!

I'm damned. ._.; (At least it's over and I can go back to being a tumor on society now. :/)