What is in this fucking water?!

And... there goes another relationship. I'm actually tearing up a bit, because someone close to me shares some of my sorrow. I said that I would never wish this feeling upon my worst enemy: to see it happen to one of my friends is breaking my heart. I'm also kinda angry that this is happening to a lot of people so fast (perhaps because I'm more sensitive to it now. I was a bastard before).

If I was confused before, then I'm completely fucking lost right now. What was once so natural and right now seems forced and wrong, and I do not understand, for the love of me, why. Why me, why them, why this, why now?

This is so weird. It's like talking to myself as I was a month ago... and sometimes it's like talking to him and agreeing with what he said. :::shudder:::

AUGH.

Back to dreams.

( Except this one wasn't about me, kinda. )

Probably gonna catch another hour or so of sleep, then head off to Pratt for the Welcome Home/Going Away party. Can't wait to see everyone! ♥

Pratt!

I took my time getting ready this morning, and made it to Pratt around two o'clock. First stop was outside Michele's room, and together we walked over to Willoughby. Laura was already there (and so were many other people)! She's living on the sixteenth floor this semester, in Adrienne's old room, since Adrienne is going to Italy next week. We'll miss her. We already miss Nicole, who's been in Scotland all month (I just learned this today, lol).

The six of us -- Adrienne, Laura, Bethany, Amanda, Michele, and I -- made our way over to Mike's Diner for lunch. Erica joined us, um, eventually, because she couldn't get her lazy ass out of bed. XD I enjoyed a cheeseburger (I CAN HAS), and Laura loved the FUCK out of her waffles. She was so happy to have WAFFLES, the poor thing.

On the way back to Willoughby, some people mentioned they wanted to play in the snow. On the way to the diner, Michele and I discovered that the snow that's falling is loose, but packs very tightly, not breaking upon impact (unless it were really HARD impact). Knowing that, I picked up a bunch of snow and threw it at Erica. She threw some more back at me, and we did it again. While she was bending down to pick up a third snowball, I smashed one on her head. She let out a ROOOOOOAAAAAAAAR and tried to get me back. I honestly can't remember if she did because I was laughing too hard. I was gone for a few minutes. :D

We spent the rest of the time back up in Laura's room, hangin' out and stuff. There was a little bit of dansu: I tried to teach Michele the beginning of Madayade, but I sent the wrong cut to our Gmail, and as I have to recut the song anyway, it kinda doesn't matter. Perhaps there will be more dansu on Friday? I'm probably heading back. :D

Presents! I gave Laura her Decembertime gift, and Adrienne and Amanda cooed over it. I guess I have to get them one, too. :3 Laura loved it, and we all kinda want to collect all eleven sets now. Gosh. As for my gifts, of which there were several -- I was surprised -- they included: a pair of chopsticks with a blue design on the ends, a blue bandana (I sense a certain color-coordinated theme, here), a Kitsu Chiri bookmark (she's a character from Sayonara Zetsubou-sensei, the one who's super precise and must have everything exact and perfect, lol), aaaaaand two doujin! One is FF6, and I have yet to take a really good look at it (i.e., attempt to read it), but there's one story that focuses on Reeeeeeelm! The FF9 one that she got me is also a secrets guide, that is, it's got lists of character abilities and magic and other stuff, like the Mognet system, for example. It's pretty neat, and I'm very excited. There's also something else that she and Abi got me, but that she forgot. BUT THAT'S OKAY because this is more than I thought would happen! @_@

We ordered out to Yamashiro for dinner. I used my new chopsticks. I taught, Michele, I think, "kireina hashi," which means "pretty chopsticks." :D Michele and I also had some ice cream. She was pretty bummed, and I asked for some. We wound up splitting it, because she said I could have used it. Haha, girly. And I wore my phoenix shirt that she got me, so she could see how it fit. ^_^ And something else that has slightly to do with Michele: I got my Jonas figure in the mail a few days ago. I hadn't opened it, because he bought it for me, but I did today to show my mom what it was. He's gorgeous, by the way, I love him. It's a shame he has to sit in that box until I reimburse him (as was my intention all along. The only reason I didn't get it for myself was because I don't have a credit card). Michele wants to see pictures. I'll have them soon. ♥

(Also, pictures: raspberrysorbet, I finally got off my ass and took pictures of the snow for you. :D It's been snowing here since yesterday, and there's been a LOT of it (a lot for New York, anyway), and I had the time, so I took about eight shots for you. I'll probably have them up tomorrow.)

Bethany was also reading Breaking Dawn, and could not pull herself away from it. Her reading it, and our groaning over everything was entertaining. All in all, a pretty good day with my buddies, and I've been invited back for later this week, possibly staying at Eri's Thursday night. For now, I've got work in the morning (poop), so it's bedtime. Oyasumi~