Oh God.

( Obviously, last night was really bad. )

( Two dreams. )

Aside of being mentally unstable, I find myself a bit out of sorts physically as well, and not just with the weight I've lost (and am unable to gain back for whatever reason). I just hope part of it clears up soon, or I might genuinely have cause to worry for myself.

Mess.

Is what I am, and I apologize. I apologize to all of you I may have hurt or offended with my ramblings. I'm sorry that I hurt you, but I'm not necessarily sorry for what I said; I can't help how I feel. I'm sorry that my words sucked, basically. I'm sorry that I suck.

A very few of you have more personal apologies in your inboxes, in case you read this first. Please respond to them.

I wish this had never happened and that I was never screwed up to begin with. You know what they say about hindsight.