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Simple things for simple people.
Dec. 27th, 2008 01:18 amI am not out of the woods yet, and although I've been advised against too closely calculating the numerical value of unhatched chicks, perhaps the canopy is starting to thin out. (LOL mixed metaphors)
Something made me smile tonight (and it felt REALLY good). Something I've grown accustomed to (read: "taken for granted") but something very simple, and something that had me ridiculously nervous -- it shouldn't have, I'm so stupid -- but it cheered me up, especially considering where it came from. There was something unexpected that made me smile, too. I couldn't believe it. My day completely turned around. I was dreading it, growing slightly nauseated from nerves, but it turned out all right. I hope it continues to be okay, and doesn't blow up in my face.
If this does turn out okay, and if I could just get past and/or work past what's killing me, I think I'll be all right. Maybe the new year won't be something to fear.... Do I dare be hopeful? It's about time I start taking more chances and stop being overly cautious. Yes. I dare be hopeful.
Oh, and I owe penance on cl_atla. WHOOPS. :3
Edit, 09:10 - This is what I get for being hopeful, for trying to be happy; this is why I've stopped trying: a dream with a very clear message. I'm so shaken right now, and once again painfully nervous. I don't know what's going to happen, and I'm scared. I just wish everything could go back to normal. It can't. Dear Goddesses, it never can.
Something made me smile tonight (and it felt REALLY good). Something I've grown accustomed to (read: "taken for granted") but something very simple, and something that had me ridiculously nervous -- it shouldn't have, I'm so stupid -- but it cheered me up, especially considering where it came from. There was something unexpected that made me smile, too. I couldn't believe it. My day completely turned around. I was dreading it, growing slightly nauseated from nerves, but it turned out all right. I hope it continues to be okay, and doesn't blow up in my face.
If this does turn out okay, and if I could just get past and/or work past what's killing me, I think I'll be all right. Maybe the new year won't be something to fear.... Do I dare be hopeful? It's about time I start taking more chances and stop being overly cautious. Yes. I dare be hopeful.
Oh, and I owe penance on cl_atla. WHOOPS. :3
Edit, 09:10 - This is what I get for being hopeful, for trying to be happy; this is why I've stopped trying: a dream with a very clear message. I'm so shaken right now, and once again painfully nervous. I don't know what's going to happen, and I'm scared. I just wish everything could go back to normal. It can't. Dear Goddesses, it never can.
