How come I'm so bad at the things I love to do, no matter how hard I try or practice? And how come what I like to do doesn't matter outside of my room?
I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know if this headache is going to go away sometime this YEAR but I do know that I am not in a happy place. I won't be myself for a while.